It has been almost 2 years since I've written here. Today this post was actually an accident, I thought I was writing for our other blog but I think it is now time to write here again.
Two years ago this Summer on July 1st we lost our beloved Ceddie Boy from congestive heart failure. I wrote in August of 2010 but didn't mention Ceddie's death because at the time I was too upset to write about it here for some reason. I had fallen into a deep depression because of so many traumatic events that had happened to us in 2010, it was Ceddie Boys death that sent me over the edge. But as time has passed it has healed and softened the intense searing pain of loss. Christian counseling along with a good church family and the love of my Savior, Alan, my family and friends still bring tears to my eyes when I think about how they have supported me. We planted a Dogwood tree in memory of him. We will be doing the same for Austen this Summer, it too will be a Dogwood tree.
This photo was taken a few days ago (2.2012). We actually got about 3 inches of snow and still have snow in patches around the garden.
The daffodils are starting to bloom! I can see their yellow faces from where I'm sitting.
Alan and I found a fountain. One with coping so the fountain will sit in a pool. We still have some questions and will need to find our own contractor to install it but slowly but surely we are making that 10 year garden plan a reality!
This photo and the snow is pretty but I'm looking forward to Spring. I can't believe that this Spring will be 2 years since Ceddie has been gone. To me it still feels like it just happened. I'm better emotionally but I still miss him a lot. I guess that is the feeling of loss, I've felt it before. It changes you, it makes you long for Christ's return when there will be no more tears, pain, sorrow or suffering. We are just passing through, that ones for sure.
I'm looking forward to Ceddie's Dogwood tree leafing out soon. I can see it also from where I'm typing right now. I love you my Ceddie Boy and Auggie Doggie and I always always will.